The anger wells inside
my sad eyes stare into the void
numb and pained
silent screams rip though what is left of my mind
what the fuck am I doing here
esteem melts and runs down the drain
along with the dreams of my future past
my smile has left me alone without notice
or even a postcard
the chill inside warms my fears
dazed in misery
drown in the ocean of tears 
whining like a whelped dog
bound in the robe of my own making
clenched in the fist of agony
homeless in my armchair
yet never late to my next appointment
marching without a beat
beating without a dream
dreaming without beginning or end
ending without return
I want to run away
to play to be happy again
to mend my torn dreams
to fly with the stars
to twinkle
to smile and understand why