You go and you come
each day
and once you find yourself
lost inside
where there is no side
bewildered, confused

I am here
but it is dark
the beacon of self
scans the horizons
I must have been invisible
for light went through me
my shadow deserted me
my reflection hid
and the pain of unknowing gnawed on

the pattern of the every day
became my camouflage
yet the darts of doubt came
from within and without
how can you lose yourself
you are not substance
neither matter or element
the unity of you is ethereal
existence here are thoughts
that drift through the sands of time
the motion and the music is you
sparkle in the sunshine
seeking in the shadows

the fog of knowledge
confines the knowing
the storm of anger
billows inside you
the acid rain eats at your core
the meltdown of your image
collapses your hopes and dreams

I am here
not a new born but more helpless
the black hole of fear
draws all my memories and energies
into a point that can not contain it all
they vanish yet I am here
lost inside spinning about
grasping at illusions
cowering in the corner

let me out
I shout
this world is what I make of it
existence is present only in my consciousness
reality is my perception
I can choose my view
I unchain my destiny
I cause my pain
I break my bonds
I regulate the beating of my heart

I am here
let the winds of erosion howl
let them strip away what they can
I will still be here